I was scheduled for an ultrasound last Tuesday to monitor fluid levels on the kiddo. Because my water broke early with Alex, the doctor wanted to make sure everything looked good. During this ultrasound the doctor became concerned with a couple of things. She said that Katie was measuring too small, in the 15-20th percentile. This in and of itself did not concern me, I have small babies. The second thing that concerned the doctor were Katie’s ‘dopplers’. From what I have been able to tell, the dopplers measure the amount of ‘force’ necessary to push blood through the placenta to the baby. They are concerned because Katie’s are very high, and combined with her low weight they decided to have me come in twice weekly for NST’s, BPP’s, fluid level checks, growth scans, and doppler scans. I was in for my NST on Friday, and the doctor didn’t like the look of the strip. They decided to admit me immediately, presumably until delivery.
The frustrating part on my end is that every test, ultrasound and monitoring that has been done since I’ve been here has looked great. While that *is* great news, there is a part of me that is crying out then why for God’s sake am I still stuck here?! If I’m good, and the baby is good, then why am I stuck in a hospital waiting on my body to fail me. I can’t do that at home? The latest I’ve heard is that as of midnight I will be NPO, off my Heparin and tomorrow they will measure her size and dopplers. If there is any reversal or worsening in the measurements, I will be sectioned immediately. With everything that is going on lately, she will look perfect and I’ll be stuck here for God knows how long. I’m very frustrated and trying to combine what is best not only for my unborn daughter, but for my two sons and husband who are trying to survive without a mother in their lives right now. I’ll update as soon as I can tomorrow.
