wow…

I was looking through my stats for the blog and saw that someone got here with a search for “pregnancy and dead baby”. Ugh. I hate that my blog can be found by that. I wish I was well spoken enough to offer meaningful advice to someone suffering from a ‘dead baby’. I’ve been through two of them. For some reason the first hurt the most. As bad as it sounds, losing Katie’s twin didn’t hurt as much. Most likely because I got at least one baby out of it. I don’t even know the point of this entry. Loss sucks, no matter when how or why it happens.

One Month

Braindead

That’s how I feel Katie had an at home nurse visit yesterday and she weighed in at 4lbs 7 oz. The nurse said everything looks good, and she’s going to refer us to an early intervention program that will evaluate her for developmental delays until she is three. I don’t think it will be an issue, but better safe than sorry. Both the boys are sick. I will be so ready for Billy to not bring every illness home from school! I got the worst sinus headache I have ever had Sunday night, and it’s just starting to taper off. Between that, and the sleepless nights I have been a lump for a week. I love my family the way it is, and am basking that it’s complete.

Overdue update

Katie is home She came home on Monday after 22 days in the NICU. She is wonderful. It seems she is like Billy, always wants to be held. Let me tell you how much that breaks my heart! We are giving her fortified breastmilk to help her gain weight more quickly. She was 4 lbs even when she was released. She had her very first Dr’s appt. the day after she was released, and that’s the only ’special’ consideration we have for her. I am pumping for her still, and let me tell you how much I hate that machine. I can’t wait until we can turn it back in. The boys are doing very well with the new sister. The biggest problem is that they want to help too much. It’s kind of hard to explain to my two year old that he needs to just back off and let mommy change the diaper, nurse the baby, etc. etc. She is going to be one spoiled little girl. I am pretty brain dead from lack of sleep, but very very happy.